my second attempt :)

Hey everyone !

so this is actually my second attempt at my second blog :) yesterday I blogged for almost an hour and when I went to go post , my internet had timed out and I lost everything I had written. So, here we go again.

I am doing a blog again because I just think its a good way for people to keep up. I also hope in some ways this blog can let my friends know what my prayer requests are :)

School is OK. we just finished mid term week so that means we are officially in "term paper week" which is , oh boy, its a long one for sure. I am just finding myself a wreck this year when it comes to school. I have had an extremely difficult time keeping up with my reading, homework , and studying. I am just finding that I have lost motivation for school. Cause all of this I failed 3 midterms, which really isn't the bad part , the bad part is that I really , honestly don't care. Maybe its cause Im still passing all my classes just fine or maybe its something else. whatever it is, school is just not appealing to me in my life right now.

the rest of my life is also Ok. I cant lie and say I have been top notch - its been a really rough year so far but I know that God is still working and there even if I cant feel that right now. I have been developing new relationships with new people who i never talked with last year so that has been good. Recently I have been tossing around the idea of staying in Abby permanently, over the summer and then into my next school year -- possibly at UFV. With the tossing of this idea I realize that I cant stay unless I have a solid group of people around here, I am far too social of a person to stay here and not have a group of people I can hangout with and call up on the weekends. So its been interesting ,  making friends with all these new people, its been a bit overwhelming but still I think ultimately it will be a good thing for me.

Its november 2nd which means that we are 6 days away from it being two years since Bill died. Maybe thats what adds to all the craziness of this year... I figured that it would get easier without him after a while but it doesn't, I still miss him like the day he died. I guess its been hard for me not to be mad at God for taking him away. I just dont understand sometimes...

In any extent, I am doing ok out here in Abby, I miss all my people at home terribly and I miss my family all the time but its good to be here and I am so blessed to have this opportunity at CBC I hope all of you are well !!

God Bless!