November 22

Hey Everyone!

Weekly blogging time :)  I hope you all are well! Im doing great again this week! God is soooo good and has been showing me his faithfulness on more levels than I can even explain. Some days I am blown away with how merciful he is with me, and all my ranting and raving.

            God has just been bringing new people into my life and letting me develop so many new friendships!! I am so blessed! I have just really been finding more and more friends and I enjoy so much being able to break out of the group I have always been a part of. I think I am driven to find new people to hangout with because I am just trying so hard to change what I was settling into, I don’t want just random, luke-warm relationships with people and with God, I want realness, and transparency and reliability. God has been so good in bringing that into my life and with every new relationship that develops I find it easier and easier to step away from the bad habits it was continually finding myself in so far this semester. Not to say that I don’t still struggle with them , its still hard for me to say no to going out drinkin with the group and whatnot, but its easier for me to say no when I can make other plans with other people. I just don’t want to be defined by that anymore and God is being so faithful in presenting opportunities for me to step away from those bad habits.

            Thinking about opportunities… I finally applied for the job as student intern this week, its scary… if I get this I move here, I don’t know, peeps think its not any different than what I am doing now and think that its not that big of deal but I guess to me it is , like, the final act of childhood. Like right now, still being a student, I would still refer to Lethbridge and my house as my “home”. but me moving here – like really moving here, is making this my home. Instead of me coming here for part of the year I might go to Lethbridge for a short time in the year… like really making this my home, all on my own. I don’t know lol maybe I am over thinking it but I just think that its like the final step of leaving my childhood behind, which is frightening and exciting for me. So applying for the job was a big deal, if I get it I am committed to it. I’m just really trying to leave it in God’s hands, if God wants me here in Abby he will give me the job, if he wants me in Lethbridge he wont J that’s how I am going to take it and I will be content with either one.

            I guess that’s part of the growth too, normally I am the kind of person who plans and gets anxious over what’s coming and where I will end up and who I might end up with. But lately I have just found a sense of contentment. This might seem foolish but I think that God placed the things I desire (to be a wife, mother, and have a career) in my heart and I don’t think he would place them there then take them away… so I know it will come eventually. So I am just trying to have the attitude of , like, “that is coming either way so why don’t you just enjoy the time that your are at in your life right now” I am finding contentment, where I don’t have to go out and search for things to make my life fall into place the way “I want it” too, but just trusting that it will all come together exactly the way God wants it too which will be so much better than my idea of good anyways! So its good :) 

            Anyhoo, this weekend was good. It was very relaxing, I cleaned and hingout with friends. Erin and Amanda and I went to the newest twilight—breaking dawn part one. I was actually pretty impressed. I have read the books and I enjoyed them but I have always thought that the movies were pretty much awful. But this one was actually really well done! I enjoyed it haha I think they are finally learning how to act and with all the money they are making now they can afford to do the graphics better and stuff in the movies. Anyways it was fun. Then right after that we came home and watched Voyage of the Dawn Treader with Bob, so lots of movies in one night but it was a good night J again, its nice to just be hanging out with new people and doing new things, not that my other friends aren’t flippen fantastic, I just like meeting new peeps.

            I need to call UFV today, I gotta set up a meeting to find out about nursing cause I think that, that is what I want to do next year. But I am worried… I know I can do it, I know I can. Its just going to be hard and I am scared. Lol how typical of me. But ya, I am procrastinating at starting the whole process, which I shouldn’t be doing at all.

            So ya, that’s me right about now. I hope you are all well and thank you for everyone who is praying for me, know that our God is amazing and is working in incredible ways, prayers never go unheard and I am so blessed to have people like you praying for me in my life. I love you all !!